It's no frikkin wonder I have a headache with all the thoughts that are dashing through my head.

Maybe this is a sign I should just take it easy for the next 3 weeks? I don't think I've properly recovered from last year. There was always something to attend to, something to complete. And I absolutely cannot enter NS depleted.

She's quite pretty isn't she? Plus we share so much in common. We'll see how things pan out =)

After all, good things happen to good people.

Suhairi can officially drive =)

I woke up this morning only to be overwhelmed by a sudden wave of loneliness.

I've always wondered who would be more scared shitless right about now. Somebody who is about to receive his A level results or someone like Theo Walcott playing against the likes of Terry and Co. So I'm gonna draw some comparisons between them and myself.

First of all, it doesn't matter to me that Arsenal lost the cup tie. This is mainly because they have outdone themselves throughout the course of the competition. And perhaps i was in the same situation as them many years ago. One teacher doubted if i was 'qualified' enough for a certain class and I was always the weak one. And then slowly things got better and people expect more out of you. What they don't understand is that fact that i relish in the role of the underdog. Overperforming is always wonderful. Underperforming sucks. Especially now. But the main fact remains, Arsenal's youths have the potential to be great. Whether they will make that step into greatness or not, nobody walking this earth knows. Call me arrogant or whatever but I'm just like them. I've done well in certain aspects and if I feel fear I sure as hell have done well to hide it. And now it's already the time to see if my foot lands on the pedestal or if it gets stuck along the sidewalk and I'll fall brilliantly on my face. And that thought is terrifying because this time around, I'm no longer the weak one overperforming. I'll be the one who royally screwed up.

On a brighter note, Fabregas was wearing the Captain's armband on Sunday! A 19 year-old leading the line against the millions of Euro's worth of talent that Jose can throw at them. Fancy that.

I've never really understood why i am so constantly repulsed by a certain group of people's actions until recently. It's like horribly discovering what you expected was right even if you don't want it to be so. First of all, I do not agree with their actions as it totally goes against everything i've stood for(and proudly at that). Worse still, their behaviour reeks hypocriticism if there's ever such a word. They can go say one thing and end up doing another. Even the ones who struck a good impression with me are guilty of this. So obviously something is majorly wrong with them. Currently I do not hate them just yet; just feeling indifferent. But keep pushing those buttons and I swear i will look upon you with disgust. And do take note that i do not hate easily. And puh-lease, enough with the disgusting actions already. Who on earth do you think you are? And if you think this entry refers to you, you're probably right :)

And just a gentle reminder from JT himself 4,6

What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way, back around

 

I don't know how I'm gonna handle working life later on when I'm so drained already. See, the problem is that i get too absorbed in whatever I do so once it's over, I feel as though all my energy has been sapped. Plus I've been all over the place doing all kinds of stuff that I've not had a moment to just relax. After all, relaxing is what post-As is about isn't it?

But don't get me wrong. I enjoy what I do. It's just that I need time for myself.

Anyway I'm setting aside March for now. It'll be my prepare-for-NS month as well as the month I get to do whatever I wish before I answer my nation's call. Honestly speaking, I hope I will get deferred soon after enlistment. =) For now I'll be praying hard my efforts will be rewarded.

Another sign that 2007 is gonna be great: I saw a shooting star today! And naturally I made a wish =)

And to all 18 year-old males, have a safe National Service stint. Besides, being bald is the in-thing these days. Think Justin Timberlake, Lincoln Burrows, Michael Scofield, Shane Ward etc.

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Add Wade Robson and Brad Pitt to that list please

You know 2007 might be a good year when you meet an excellent defence lawyer on the first day at work. I'm not gonna put his name here for fear of getting sued. That's how good he is so you should have a clue by now. And not only that, you get to see 2 beautiful sisters that came by 2 days in a row. And today, the younger of the 2 dropped by with her mum. Let's see how long my luck can hold out =D

The looming New Year has jolted everybody into a much more reflective mood i see. Usually I meet new years with a good dose of apprehension because it means the start of the academic year but this next year it's gonna be different. I'm finally entering that transition period and with the late enlistment I'll be (hopefully) able to do something meaningful with my time. Not to mention the very high possibility of meeting new people either in camp or at the university(once again, hopefully). I admit I've been very anti-social the past 363 days but I'm determined to change that come 2007. I'm determined to make 2007 a better year. And just in case you were wondering I'm not making any resolutions=) Things will happen for a reason. After reading so many books I've decided to give fate a shot. Can't hurt can it?

Happy New Year everybody and to all Muslims, Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha =)