[suhairi]

Moved

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 11:12:40 GMT

http://suhairi88.tumblr.com

Not deleting this blog cause it has memories for me. One day my grandchild my stumble upon it haha =)

Am I Bright Enough To Shine In Your Spaces?

Sun, 25 Oct 2009 15:15:35 GMT

I know I could never be someone that could look like you.

Thunderbolt and Lightning Very Very Frightening

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 14:40:37 GMT

Time to step it up.

And I've Got No Excuse

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 14:36:27 GMT

Be brave. Be strong. Do what needs to be done without worrying too much about anything else =D

This Is Not What I Do

Mon, 14 Sep 2009 12:48:26 GMT

It's the wrong kind of place to be thinking of you.

I should think of myself first. I've all that I've got.

As Far As I Am Concerned

Fri, 04 Sep 2009 15:08:33 GMT

My Conscience Is Clear.

How Did It Come To This

Sun, 30 Aug 2009 15:26:27 GMT

This is the weekend where everything went wrong.

Cause Everything Is Never As It Seems

Wed, 19 Aug 2009 16:17:08 GMT

You appreciate things much better from a different perspective. For weeks I've been talking to patients, trying to figure out what could be plaguing them, what is being done for them and how their life will be changed, if at all. But I'd be lying if I said that it was a happy journey because there are times when you feel helpless. You could spend hours over a textbook and still not be able to make a patient whole again. And I've seen how decisions are made, some with thoughtful deliberation, others with far less effort and it doesn't impress me. Maybe it's wrong of me to think highly of my capabilities or that of other people because there are some things that human hands simply cannot fix. And now that I am fully aware of this fact, it's much harder to convince myself that everything can be solved. But maybe this profession isn't about solutions? To cure sometimes, relieve often, comfort always?

And I've also seen unpleasant stuff, heard less than charming things and it further disillusions me. I can continually ask myself 'why' and yet the answer won't come. Doubt is also another issue I have to contend with. To be in a setting where grim news is commonplace isn't such a fantastic feeling. You walk out of the place and yet the aura hangs over you like a dark cloud. How can you not feel affected when you are expected to lead your own life knowing full well that someone else's could be over?

I guess reality is much too strong a force and it will weigh down heavily on my ideals and views. This is an area for improvement. To continue with what I think is right and have faith that it will work out or succumb to what seems inevitable at this point in time? I have no clue. I've asked myself this question before and 8 weeks later the answer still eludes me. Maybe I've been looking for it at the wrong places, trying to force out an explanation that will rationalize my future decision. But sometimes the harder you try the more it eludes you. What I do know is that I should use this time to recollect myself because when it all comes down to it, all I have is me.

Nothing's Ever Built To Last

Sat, 01 Aug 2009 15:18:52 GMT

Who am I kidding? At the end of the day, we're all left to fend for ourselves. Our deeds and our actions, will be of our own consequence.

I Hope It's Gonna Make You Notice

Wed, 29 Jul 2009 10:43:02 GMT

Hopes dashed. So the restriction continues.

Off in the night while you live it up I'm off to sleep
Use Somebody- Kings of Leon